Monday, May 6, 2013

Our Beautiful Baby




We had our anatomy scan today. I was very nervous, in the days leading up to this (as I have shared previously) but was surprisingly peaceful this morning. After dropping off our boys to a really sweet friend (who volunteered to watch our boys last minute) we headed to the appointment. We hardly had to wait (thankfully) and were taken back. The tech (her name is Cami) is one who has scanned us many times before, so knew our nervousness. Our little gal was in quite the position, but she did cooperate, in her own timing. The tech (and later the doctor) confirmed she was a girl. 


It was funny, because after the tech scanned, the perinatologist came in, and said "well, exciting news" and I said "whoo-hoo, a 4 chambered heart." He just looked at me, shook his head, and laughed. He said "yes, that too, but I was saying congrats on the girl." (Yep, we REALLY just want a healthy baby.) He again looked at everything, some more in-depth shots, and even printed off some photos of that GORGEOUS 4 chambered heart. 



We were just so excited to see everything there: kidneys, beautiful lobes of the brain, and a lovely heart. We still go in about 4-5 weeks for a fetal echocardiogram, and then follow up the week later with perinatology, but we breathed a HUGE sigh of relief today. I told Mike that I feel like I am 70% relieved, with the next 10% coming at the fetal echo, with another 10% coming the week later when things still look good, and the last 10% coming when I am holding our sweet daughter in my arms. Thank-you for the prayers, thoughts, and kind words. They have helped us to find peace. We are so excited for this little girl to come into our lives and wrap her brothers and dad around her sweet little fingers. I watched Collin and Jacob tonight, with their 10 month old cousin, and it made me so excited to see their interactions with their little sister. Here is one last cute picture, of our sweet little gal's foot. 


I am off to bed, as a huge weight has been lifted off our shoulders. :)

Saturday, May 4, 2013

35 Hours

Not that I am counting or anything, but we are down to 35 hours until our scan. Our sweet neighbor will be watching our boys, while Mike and I head in to Maternal Fetal Medicine. I am really hoping it is one of the techs we know so well, because the one we had last time was unfamiliar, and I need all the familiarity that is possible for this. I have been holding it together, but tonight, at around 5, I lost it. I started sobbing, and then became frustrated, and just wanted to hit something. This is why this baby has to be our last biologically, because I cannot do this physically or emotionally, and I am fairly sure Mike would have to have me committed. I am not sure I am going to be able to shake the anxiety now. I am just grateful my sister and brother-in-law are blessing their baby tomorrow, because it will a welcome distraction. I am just hoping this scan will bring peace. I think there will still be some nervousness, post appointment, with the details the fetal echo will bring, and because Jacob's issues did not show up until he was 22 weeks (but that is not supposed to be genetically linked). But we will take a huge amount of comfort in hopefully seeing 4 chambers, and the lobes of the brain, and the kidneys, etc., and that will help. Please keep us in your prayers, to find peace through the next 35 hours, and beyond. We need them, and do feel the difference. Thank-you.