The Bends and Twists Along the Road of Life.

We are always on the road of life. Sometimes (not very often in our family) you are coasting along the bright and sunny straight fairway. Other times, you are driving along steep curves and bends that threaten you very life and push you till you feel you are going to fall off. This two week wait we are in is very much the steep and beautiful mountain roads, that in the end will take you either to beautiful places or will threaten your very sanity. It seems the further and further away we move from being in St. George, this last week, and the feelings of the beautiful peace and spirit that we mostly felt while down there, the more anxious I become. And since the further away we move from this last week, and the closer we draw towards going back down, the more I worry. We are doing so much to get ready, both physically and spiritually. It feels the more we do, the more I want our baby, to be here, with us and working on becoming our eternal family. It is soo hard to not have what you want more than almost anything in this world. It sucks even more to miss the first weeks of our baby's life. I try not to think about it, but it seems that there is such a strong force working against me to feel doubt and fear. In our religion, we feel very strongly that Satan can be a strong force. We also believe that the feelings of doubt and fear are not from our loving Heavenly Father but are instead of and from Satan. And I know that Satan is working hard on us, because it is not his goal to see great things happen, like this baby becoming part of our family. We also believe that families can be together forever. So although I do feel the beautiful peace that I know my sweet Lilly and Ryker bring, and they are near to me at this time, there is also the darker force working so hard to counteract those peaceful and beautiful feelings. This week we will be working hard to jump through any other remaining hoops, and hopefully one week from Tuesday will be able to bring our baby home. So continue the prayers for us. We feel uplifted and need that feeling. Please continue to pray for all our little heart friends out there. Our niece will hopefully be able to come home soon, but she is still so fragile. Thank-you for all of your uplifting comments. As soon as I can share the picture of our little one, we will.