I Feel Blessed

I had the wonderful opportunity to be able to chat with a few angel heart moms tonight. These were 4 women who unknowingly saw me through some of the darkest hours of my life. When you lose a child, you become part of a club. It is not a club you ever want to be part of, but one you have joined none-the-less. I count these women as some of my dearest friends. They know what it is like to get the horrible news that your baby has a serious medical problem, they have loved and watched their little ones, and than said goodbye to their sweet angels, and than had to move on with life. The moving on is the worst part. Your little one is gone from your arms, people are moving on with their lives, at times forgetting those special days, which just makes it hurt even worse. The pain, the having to mourn and go through the motions of living, and missing your little ones so bad that it physically hurts just feels like too much. It feels as if someone has stuck a knife in your chest, and there is nothing you can do. And you feel alone, that no one really around you understands, and that life will never bring happiness. And when all just seems dark, you see a light, or several lights. There are other who you can turn to, who understand the pain of that knife, and the ache of empty arms. And so we mourn with one another, talked about our frustrations, lent a listening ear, and went on living. 

Talking with them tonight, over yummy food, I just felt such a love and sisterhood. They are each so  remarkable to me, each with different strengths. I just felt so tremendously blessed to be able to spend time with them. I feel blessed that Mike after working 12 long hours at work was willing to come home and send me off while he put the boys to bed. I feel blessed to be a mom to two little miracles, miracles in their own different ways. Now if we could avoid any more of the sickies this winter I would be one ecstatic momma.

And I just wanted to add a thank-you to those who are spreading the word about our need for milk. We appreciate more than words could begin to express. The donations are truly priceless!