Waiting for this Day

My computer has been acting up, so sorry about the belated post. Today was a long day. It seemed like forever to wait for our appointment this afternoon. We dropped Collin off to one of our dear friends, and headed down. Mike's Mom came along. When we were diagnosed with Lilly, she was in Africa, and when I had my appointment while pregnant with Ryker, she was there when the bomb was dropped about his heart. Mike's Mom (I call her Mom) was due to be there for an ultrasound with us where there was good news. We went in, and our perinatologist was already in the room. Now normally the ultrasound tech would scan first, and than our doctor would come in and scan. But at the last appointment, I mentioned what had happened with Ryker. I saw the same Dr. and Mike was with me while the ultrasound tech scanned, and even though she knew something was off, she did not even hint that he should maybe hang around when he said he needed to head back down to his unit. Thank-heavens for my mother-in-law, because when the doctor came in and said there was something majorly wrong, I am not sure that I could have handled the news by myself. I discussed this with our Dr the last time, so it was pretty kind that he took that consideration to eliminate the extra worry. He started with the head, and we saw the brain and it's lobes. He had not intended to scan the heart next, but our baby just wanted to show off his heart. When he said "4 chambers", I told him that he could repeat that phrase over and over again. Now it is amazing what they can see with the baby's heart only being about 1/2 inch big. We even saw the major vessels and arteries. He scanned the kidneys, stomach, legs, arms. The only picture we did not really get was a clear shot of the face. He wanted to make sure the lip was formed and not cleft, but really, I can handle cosmetic issues. We were truly in just complete shock that this baby was perfect. This truly was not a day I thought I would ever see, that we would ever see. When lightening strikes twice, you just expect it to strike a third time. It wasn't till we got into the car and were on the freeway that the tears of gratitude came. This baby is healthy (and we are working on a name, I promise!) and I cannot express our gratitude to be able to say that!!! I am even going to say it again: this baby is healthy! Perfect in body. An answer to many many prayers. I had them print off some pictures, and the one I asked for was the 4 chambered heart. My scanner is having issues, but I do not care when, I will be showing that off because it just meant so much to not see the problems we faced with Lilly and Ryker. I would never change the way things happened, because they are so much a part of us and where we are, where we have been, and where we hope to someday be. But I am also grateful to not have to worry about funeral arrangements to be made even before our baby is born. It is very difficult to enjoy a pregnancy when you are mourning the loss even before it happens. Anyway, I hope my ramblings made some sense. My euphoria is still running high and I must sign off to go to bed and go and thank our Heavenly Father for this blessing. Good night all!!!! And thank-you, thank-you, thank-you for the prayers/kind thoughts/well-wishes!!!!