Going to be tough week.

This week is a tough week, Six months ago today, Mike and I attended Stake Conference, and were fortunate enough to have Elder Cook there to preside. The youth (at an earlier session) and then the whole congregation were given an apostolic blessing. To out it simply, we were promised that if we were doing everything we could be doing to grow closer to our Father-in-Heaven (reading scriptures, family and individual prayers, etc. )we would be blessed with a miracle in our life, and that also, we would be blessed with charity and peace that we needed for whatever would happen in our lives. As Mike and I walked home, I immediately thought of Ryker, 6 weeks old and still up at Primary's. I told Mike that it was time for our miracle. Looking back, the miracle we were given was not the miracle so may prayed for, but it truly was a miraculous week. I was able to hold Ryker, Mike would say that it was a miracle that Ryker got to meet Ronnie Brewer and Paul Milshap (sorry thatI butchered the names)Ryker was peaceful & happy, and so we got a lot of really cute pictures. But most especially, we were truly faithful and really striving harder then ever to live so that we could be closer to Heavenly Father. You all know the outcome, but I think one of the greatest blessings of the day Ryker passed, was Mike and I both knowing that his time was truly at an end, and that it was time to sadly say goodbye. I do believe that Ryker's spirit spoke to us, because when Mike and I looked at each other, we both nodded, and instructed the doctors that we would give him a blessing, and then they would stop all means of keeping him alive. We also found out that Ryker was going to be a boy, one year ago today. And next Sunday, Father's Day, it marks 6 months of Ryker's passing. Mike is also going on a camp-out for Mon-Wed, so it is just going to be me and Skip. So forgive me if you are around me, I will probably put on my happy-face, and if you ask me how I am doing, I will probably just say fine. Just know that most likely it is one of my masks, but you find that after you have lost someone that you love with all your heart and soul, that the "happy" mask is sometimes a necessity for normal functioning. The good-news is that Mike and I are almost done with our nutrition class, so hopefully we will finally be able to get working fully on our "Ryker and Lilly" projects. And I will begetting more information to those of you who are willing to help out.