Bringing C Home!!!

We got the call, and we are going to get him Thursday morning!!! We are heading down tomorrow and than will be heading back with our son Thursday afternoon. I am so grateful to the amazing caseworkers and so grateful to everyone who has been keeping us in their thoughts and prayers. I am so grateful to our sweet angels, and feeling them especially close to us yesterday and today. I have been really stressed and patience has been non-existant (not to mention, a lovely affect of being a woman came and brought some super fun hormones!) It was neat this morning, and even yesterday. I kept feeling like we would find out today, but I was too scared to get my hopes up. But it literally felt like Lilly and Ryker kept coming and just kept letting us know that it would happen. Someday, when we are reunited with them, I would like to know if really and truly it was them there with us. I feels like it, so strongly. They bring a different kind of peace. But I guess it is something I will just have to believe and not see for right now. They want the couple who has been taking care of C to have some transition time. If it were up to me, I would have him tomorrow. But I will have to patient just one more day. We truly understand what it is like to say goodbye to someone that you have cared for the last 5 1/2 weeks of their life. You see, Lilly was 5 1/2 weeks when we had to say goodbye to her, and she entered the embrace of loving family and her loving Heavenly parents. It is hard, but life continues. Anyways, we will update through Twitter, while we are down there. Thank-you again for all the prayers. We are being blessed with a miracle!!!

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Just Waiting.

I wish I could say that we know when we will be able to go and bring home C, but we do not. I am praying for it to be this week, and feel that it really could be, but I am TRYING to not get my hopes up (pretty much though, too late!) I am packing our bags, and will have everything ready for us when the call comes. I guess we pretty much treat this like we are about to have a baby, just not knowing when it will happen, just a general idea of when it might. So we will let you when we get the word. Just PLEASE pray that hearts will be softened that the workers will push our paperwork through QUICKLY!!! Up till this point, I was REALLY frustrated with the 4 day state work-week. But the thought came to me today that although it does shorten the week, it also gives the workers more time during the day to get the paperwork completed. Thank-you all for your support. I am on the edge, just waiting. And the prayers help to ease how hard the wait is!
P.S. The diaper bag came today!!! Mike is not at all impressed, but I LOVE it!!! It is cute, ton's of pockets (it even has a key latch so that you never have to lose your keys again!) I can not wait to be able to use it (did I mention that it is also treated so that it is water and stain repellent?!) It so far has been the best part of my week (although, I am hoping it is not the only highlight, awaiting news of a much bigger event that would THRILL me, or better us!)

Learning Something New

Well pretty much, what I have is something viral, and just simply feel like crap from it. I am praying that this goes away VERY soon, but hopefully our house will be healthy soon. That being said, I just wanted to share a way that will be easy for everyone to stay updated amid trips to Southern Utah. There is a lot of technology that is new, and a lot of it I do not always grasp. I joined Twitter awhile ago, but somehow managed to forget my account. So I created a new one. (For those of you already on Twitter, our name is "the G fam" and you can follow us through Twitter.) You wonder, why Twitter? The best and most useful feature of Twitter (for us) is that we can send updates, via our phone, and let you know what is going on (remember how when we are down in Southern Utah and we can not usually update until we get back, well, that will no longer be a problem!!!) So here's what you can do. You can join twitter and follow the ins and outs of our life (I know, yawn!) or to the left hand side, there is a running update. When we text to twitter (or update through our online Twitter), you will be able to see the update right there! So here I go, one more step toward becoming more technologically savvy!

Can't Sleep

So, here it is, 6:00 am, and I have been WIDE awake since 2:00 am. Why, you would have to ask, are you awake? Could it be because although I thought I was getting better (helped move family yesterday, went to my Best Friend's Wedding, out to eat with sister and another best friend) and just really thought we were getting back to normal and healthy again. Well, at 2:00 am I awoke to horrendous pain in my ear, my head, and just aching all over. Thanks to a bit of IBprofen, I am not tossing back and forth in bed anymore, or praying for daylight to come and the pain to leave (I seriously almost considered having Mike take me to the hospital. That is how bad it hurt!) I embraced my lack of sleep and pain, and decided to get up, get online and figure out when the instacare opened (I WILL be their first customer this morning) because pretty sure I have probably have either an ear infection, a sinus infection, or maybe even strep (was really contemplating the symptoms of meningitis, but ruled that choice out!) Because I know there is NO way that I would be getting anymore sleep, I got online. Boy was that the best step (BTW, currently counting down the time to when I get to go and wake up Mike to take me to the said instacare!) I have been online reading about some AMAZING people. When you lose a child, you become part of pretty special club. Not a club you want to be in, but a club that is full of empathy, where there are people that will mourn with you and truly can empathize with what you are going through. Oddly enough, as much as I hate having to be part of the club, I am always searching for others that understand what we have been through. I wanted to share a couple. Here are their links, and I would elaborate on their stories, but I could do no justice. So if you have a little bit of time, their stories, although very sad and tragic, are stories of survival and gratitude. The first is a little boy names Daxton. Click here to read his story. The next is another little boy named Sage. Their loss is more recent, and so it is a new pain. The third blog is not about loss, but I have a feeling that after reading about the other two sweet angels, you will love reading about this amazing little girl Mia .This little girl is so adorable and full or spirit and love. We have a soft spot in our home for heart heroes, especially those who have had transplants and are miraculously here. This love stems from being next door to a little heart hero, at Primary's while Ryker was alive (we love you Kaidence!) So if you have a little time, visit these blogs. They are amazing people, and I feel better sharing a small window into their lives.
The one last thing I wanted to share that is so odd about blogs: it is a very odd occurence to know someone through their blog. I have met several people lately that up till that moment, have only known them through the on-line world. It is weird to put a face with a blog, and to physically talk to someone that you feel you know so well. Maybe it is just me, but it definitely is an different experience! So hopefully my next post will be Monday, hopefully having a little better idea of when we can maybe bring C home!

My Best Friends Wedding

And no, not the movie. When I moved to Utah my senior year of high-school, I made some best-friends (and they still are!) When I started going to what we LDS people call a singles-ward (it is a ward for those in a specific area that are all single and are under 32 or 33, not sure which) I made two AMAZING friends. Oddly enough, one also grew up on the East Coast (she is my bestie Jennie) and the other was my best friend Bryan. I still remember falling asleep (along with Jen and Bryan) on Bryan's Mom's massive family room couch, and waking up at 5 am and Jen and I driving home. There were NEVER romantic feelings, just pure friendship (the coming home at 5 turned to 2 am after a couple of months, because my Dad asked that I could please come home at least before he got up at 4, so he did not have to be worry about me lying dead in a ditch somewhere. Sorry Dad!!!) Bryan is an amazing dancer. A lot of our activities were finding some dance to attend (have I ever mentioned I LOVE to dance, and with a great dancer, can move pretty well!) Bryan was there for all my guy woes, and really cheered Mike and I geting together. (I also loved that my best guy friend also drove a convertible, lot's of fun there!) After Lilly passed away, Mike and I went to his work party and Bryan was there to teach dance moves. After the instruction, I danced a ton with Bryan, and all of Mike's co-workers kept asking Mike if that guy (Bryan) knew that I was married. Mike chuckled and just told them Bryan had been there long before he was. Today, the last of my best friends got married. We barely know his sweet wife, but we know already tht we will love her, because Bryan does (recent events have made for a crappy social life!) I want to wish amazing luck to Bryan and Rebecca! I am grateful that so many blind dates did not work out, and that he is able to find what the rest of us have found, pure and amazing love! (What is odd, is that I really only have three more weddings to attend: my adopted sister Mags, my own little sister, and Mike's little brother.)
P.S. You know I will be on the phone first thing Monday morning to learn if anything more is known about us bringing little C home, this week. Also, there is some talk of our cute little niece coming home maybe this week. I think C and Gracie are in a race to see who gets to come home first!

The Waiting Game

This waiting game we are in: it sucks. It is hard, it hurts, and I wish it was over. I wish I was awake right now, feeding little C instead of just having the case of "I can't sleeps. My mind won't stop." How I wish I was the lucky on getting up to change a wet diaper, or feed a hungry little guy (have I mentioned that he is growing rather quickly?) I wish I was the one who was getting all the smiles and maybe some coos. It hurts, and I wish it did not have to. I am starting to believe that it may not be till our "appointement/meeting" (or maybe even after?) on the 8th of April that we will be able to bring him home. I was wandering the baby section of Target, (as I often do) and there were some funny little First Easter outfits, but I could not bring myself to buy anything like that, because the last time we bought him a holiday outfit was for St. Patrick's day, (which we were able to dress him in) but it just hurt to have to think we would not be able to really enjoy it. I know I should be grateful that he will be ours, but I never knew the waiting would be so hard or so long. I think some of my frustrations stem from being house-bound because of sickness this last week. I HATE being sick, and I hated Mike being sick too. But that's life, right? My buggest thing to look forward to right now (because it is the one vice that will not fail me) is awaiting the arrival of the cute and chic little Oi Oi diaper bag (and if you google Oi Oi, you will realize how sinful I was in lusting after the cute bag!) Anyways, I am off to blog-land for hopefully some uplifting stories and tales. Good-night!
*P.S. I am pretty needy right now, I will admit it. So please leave me some upbeat and positive comments and cheer us on. We are trying so hard to not lose hope or faith, or get discouraged. So as one of my E-BFF put's it: Validate me!