My Lilly

I am not sure why sometimes there are moments where I miss Lilly and Ryker. I think it may have something to do with me sensing their sweet spirits as they come to check on us, and my heart and soul can sense that. I have been reading the doings of our cute little niece Morgan. Morgan and Lilly were born the same day, just a few hours apart from another. 

My sister-in-law and I were due just about a week and a half from another, and we ended up both having our babies the same day. Morgan is so sweet, but just growing up so fast. So sometimes when she hits those milestones, it is a bittersweet reminder of what I am missing. 

And as much as I know I will have her again someday, there is just no escaping the pains of missing her, and Ryker. Having Lilly was one of the hardest things I ever did. I went through 20 hours of labor in the hospital before having a c-section, and every minute and every day we had her, there was the constant worry that we would be saying goodbye to her. 

So today I mourn the little girl who made me a mom. I mourn the days I have spent away from her, and long for the days when I will see her again and hold her in my arms. So I leave you with a few pictures of my sweet girl. Love you Lilly.