Mike is so ready to share what exactly is going on, but I am not. This is unusual because normally Mike is the reserved one and I am the one sharing everything. I am sorry for driving you all nuts. I will say that we are praying for a good ending to all this, which if all goes well, we will know in two weeks exactly. We were praying for everything to be known today, for the decisions to be decided so that we could stop making so many trips down to St. George. We made it safely down to St. George, and after a restless night (for me), we got up to face the day. There was a lot of praying, a lot of pondering, and just pleading to the Lord to bring peace, no matter what happened. Things kept getting moved back to later and later, and finally the time came. We felt like things were going our way, but than the world turned up-side down on us, and we were left upset, and heart-broken. We headed back, and just ached at how saddened and empty we felt. We cried, we yelled out in frustration, and just felt like things could not possibly begin to go right in our family. Fifteen minutes later, those who had made us so unhappy, called to tell us to come back to see if things could work out. Another 1 hour and 20 minutes later, we felt much more peace, but were emotionally spent. It seems the Lord is indeed softening hearts, because it is exactly what happened in some small ways today, and even the last couple of days. We feel good about going back down in two weeks, that we will maybe get our good ending. You just never know. We just know that we have a bunch of hoops to jump through.
P.S. This next comment is for/from Mike:
It should be pretty obvious what is going on. Since there are quite a few people who do already know, and word is bound to get around anyway, we agreed that it would be best to let you know that this is indeed all related to adopting a baby. We will not share the specifics, but just know the baby is stinking cute, which must mean that our little baby is already here!!! So PLEASE, PLEASE pray for our little family this next two weeks.
*And we will share more when we feel we are able to. There is just still so much unknown that we need to protect ourselves and our little one.*
I have been praying for you two all day! You have no idea how many times I have checked your blog today. I will continue praying for you.
ReplyDeleteYou are right to pray for peace. That's the most important thing in these situations. Not every baby that comes along is right for your family. (I can't even tell you how many babies we tried for before the RIGHT one came along.) And having God's peace is key to getting through. It's the only way to survive this rollercoaster.
I truly hope that this is your happy ending. Keep us posted. And don't hesitate to call or email if you need anything.
We will continue to pray. I am sorry that you are having to go through this emotional roller-coaster! You of all people don't deserve it, but you of all people can handle what the Lord will ask you to endure. I know in the end it is going to make the blessing of the child that enters your family to be that much sweeter. All our love and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you had such an emotional day. I wish things could just get easier for you. But if they were easy then you wouldn't grow and Heavenly father wants us all to grow. I am so excited for you and I sure hope things work out. I will pray for you, thank you for the update I have been watching for one and keep the updates coming.
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking of you and checking your blog all day!
ReplyDeleteYou deserve a happy ending and I'm praying for you to have a baby very soon.
Con cariño.
Silvia.
I was so hoping that that is what you guys were talking about. I can't wait to know more, but how exciting for you both. I am so sorry to know that you are going through such an emotional roller coaster, please hang in there and be strong, i KNOW that good things will come of this. We love you both and are praying for you!
ReplyDeleteWow! I am so nervous for the two of you. I know that whatever is meant to be will be but...
ReplyDeleteI really hope that this is meant to be. The two fo you are the most amazing parents and any child would be beyond blessed to join your little family.
I hope all will work out for the best in the end. GOOD LUCK and I am praying for you.....
ReplyDeleteI got to your blog through another heart baby's (Grant). I don't know you, but I'm praying right now that things will work out for you.
ReplyDeleteAs someone who has been in your shoes, I'm praying the hardest!!!
ReplyDeleteI soo want this to work for you and rollercoasters do stop. Keep the faith and we'll keep praying.
HAng in there. Our adoption was kind the same way other than the baby wasn't here yet. We thought it was totally off for two months. Then out of the blue they called us to tell us it was going to happened. WE will keep you the baby and the sweet potential birth mom in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteI found you through another blog, i am pregnant due in a few weeks with a heart baby. I have been looking around on other peoples blogs, hope you don't mind. We are from Ogden, it seems you are near, i couldn't figure out where exactly. Thanks for sharing and good luck to you!
ReplyDeletePraying for you from St George. Hope you get to come back down here and pick up that stinkin cute baby. Above all, praying for peace for your family.
ReplyDeleteGood luck!!! We're praying for you!!
ReplyDeleteI was hoping and praying that this was what was going on! I will continue to pray for you guys. I hope so badly that things work out so you get your happy ending... and happy beginning. You guys are so deserving of this!
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ReplyDeleteI actually am not even sure how I came to follow your blog....I'm not too weird though, I'm just from Idaho! Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you guys. You deserve some good news!
ReplyDeleteOH! I hope that the next 2 weeks goes by quickly or that the process just moves much faster than expected. I am so EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI am praying and have sooooo much HOPE for you. Isn't HOPE a GREAT thing! After that terrible day in the PICU and watching what you went through, the thought of your arms being full again honestly brings me to tears. My heart is so grateful that you are this much closer to having them filled again. If their is anything I can do for you, PLEASE let me know. Do I need to go and tell everyone what AWESOME parents you are and how I watched you day after day care for little Ryker? I totaly will. I wish we could all wear shirts that say "VOTE FOR THE G family". Call me (only if you want). Sending good vibes and Spirit Fingers your way.
I hope all goes well for the two of you. What an emotional ride...
ReplyDeleteYour story has touched my heart. What amazing parents you are and will be. I found your blog through Kaidence. We have known them for a long time. At this time I just wanted you to know that we are praying for you. I know the Lord will put his arms around you as you wait for that special spirit to fill your arms. Sending love, hope and prayers from Wyoming.
ReplyDeleteI was so hoping that was the reason you were coming to St. George. I will continue to pray for you. Oh, I hope so badly this all turns out wonderful for you because you both deserve it!
ReplyDeleteLove,
Andrea
Wyatt's mommy
I have been praying for you both all day! Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteHoping and praying for the best. When the time is right, I can't wait to hear more.
Thinking of you!
April
I am so happy you are so close, I hope it all works out. I will continue to pray for you both to have the peace you need to get through these next few weeks and beyond. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteWe are praying... praying for your chance to finally hold a precious angel in your arms. Not to say goodbye... but for a lifetime on earth.
ReplyDeleteYou deserve it all and more! The next few weeks will be nervewracking (for me) and I will be checking your blog obsessivley.
Here's to another HAPPY ENDING!!
good luck! I clicked over to your blog from Teagan's...
ReplyDeleteMy nephew, was born with HLHS, he was born at 32 weeks, unfortunately his journey was ended too quickly at only 3 days.
Your prince and princess are beautiful, and are so lucky to have you as their mom and dad! I hope that this little one will be lucky enough to be able to share their days with you too.
Beth Elkington Stroud
March 4, 2009 10:52 AM